Today, I had my one year review, a few days shy of the anniversary of my radical prostatectomy last August. I had a PSA test last week and I knew that the PSA level was undetectable, which meant that I knew the review would be a pleasant chat. My continence is good and I have a level of sexual function, with some assistance from my trusty tablets. In short, I am in as good a position as I could reasonably expect. This time last year, I was in a state of turmoil, not knowing what the future would hold for me. The blog I wrote regarding my pre op assessment clearly contained hints of the disordered state of my mind.
A year is a long time. A lot has happened. My recovery had several stages. The first two weeks, I had a cathetar, so was pretty uncomfortable. When that came out, the question was whether I'd be continent. I bought a stack of pads, but from day one, I didn't need these. Occasionally, there was a small dribble if I was inpatient and didn't empty my bladder properly. I've found there are two situations which can be problematic. One is where I drink more than four pints of beer and do not have a loo handy. The other, which can be more problematic, is where I am sitting down and I suddenly reach down to my left or right to pick something up off the floor. The strecth seems to open the sphincter to the bladder. A small amount f leakage will occur. The time this is most a problem is at band rehearsals, when I am setting up guitar pedals. It is not really enough to constitute a problem, but it is not pleasant. I did my pelvic floor exercises before and after, which I believe helped. I have tried to limit my caffeine input to three cups of caffinated tea a day (in the morning) and I try and avoid having more than four beers. If I am on a sessions, I'll have a single shot of whiskey instead for the round. Much of it is learning to manage situations. I don't go on massive drinking benders particularly often, so it isn't a big problem for me, but on a couple of occasions I've got carried in the moment and realised my mistake. Fortunately Thameslink trains have loo's. It's when I've taken the tube I suffered.
As to sexual function, that is more of a work in progress. With the help of Cialis genre drugs, I can function sexually. I've not had what you'd describe as a sponatneous erection without them. I have full feeling when sexually aroused and can reach a climax. It is odd as the sensation is exactly the same but nothing comes out. One of the main reasons that men don't have surgery is fear of losing sexual function. It is not great to have to take pills, but on balance, it is better than death and I have a supportive partner. I discussed this with my surgeon and he said that male sexual function starts to decline from 55. As I am 62 this month, I should accept that I can perform with tablets and not be too hung up about it.
So what was the alternative? Radiotherapy or do nothing. If I'd had Radiotherapy, I'd have been on hormone therapy for three months, had six weeks of radiotherapy and then had another year of hormone therapy, so I'd still have six months of treatment left. Theoretically, when this was done, my sexual function would have returned to normal. I was very much leaning towards this initially, when the team at UCL told me I'd have no sexual function post op. When Professor Eden told me that the neurosafe surgical procedure offered a far better chance of preserving function, I decided to go for that. I was pleased that I did. I would not like to still be in treatment. As to doing nothing? Well he said that I couldn't be sure, but most likely within a couple of years, given the pathology of my prostate, it would have spread. Then I'd have been on hormone therapy for life.
The neurosafe procedure is only available privately. I was diagnosed originally in 2011, when I was 49.I have no idea how I'd have reacted to the news that my sexlife would be over. I personally think it should be a default for all men under 55. It is expensive, but cheaper to the NHS than long term cost of men declining treatment and dying of the disease.
Life moves on and life goes on. I was considering the future of this series in the blog. For the foreseeable future, I'll still be having quarterly PSA test and bi-annual consultations. There's a more than reasonable chance that it might be a rather boring series of 'everything is OK blogs', I certainly hope so, but only time will tell. Should I continue with it? I'm not a doctor so all I can really do is pass opinions. At some point, I may well put it all in a book of some sort. Would anyone be interested? It cast a shadow over a decade of my life. There are quite a few books on the subject, few have been satisfactory to me, as someone on the journey. Enough blokes get the horrible condition to make me think there is an audience. Who knows.
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Very helpful, as well educational. A very sensitive and personal subject that you’ve always covered fully and with dignity maintained. Thank you!
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