Last year, in a vain attempt to get myself fit, I started the Wellbeing Wednesday series, full of the joys of new year resolutions. My plan was to get my weight down, get my BMI down, get fit and get back to playing football if possible. I thouht that writing a blog chronicling my outstanding successes would spur me on. In the event, I failed miserably, the diet and the fitness regime collapsed and by November not only was I heavier than ever, but I was moving dangerously close to being diabetic, let alone pre-diabetic. What went wrong? Well, as Harold MacMillan once said, 'Events Dear boy, Events'. I managed to slip on some mud in June, walking back from the Adam and Eve pub and badly damaged my shoulder. I could hardly sleep, let alone exercise. My ankle was playing up and walking was extremely painful. I am not good at being bored, so I did what I always do when I am bored with nothing to do, I eat and drink to excess. My one saving grace is that I don't have a sweet tooth and I don't like processed food. However, when I had my check up in November, it was a real shock. My weight had balloned to 17st 13. My glucose level was just 2 below diabetic. It was just what I needed, a real kick in the backside!
I immediately started a 20+4 fasting regime 2-3 days a week. This is meant to be the best way for a man of my age to get their glucose levels down. I also went back to the gym and somehow actually hit my target of doing 1,000km in 2024 in the gym on the bike and rowing machine. By the end of December, I was down to 17' 2. I set myself a target of 1,500KM for this year. My target for the year is to get the weight down to 14' 7. I am at 16'9 at the moment. Experience has taught me that the first half a stone is easy and then it get harder and harder, but I've got to 16'9 since the start of the year so it is on track(ish). My target is to lose 4lbs a month, so if I hit 16'8 this month, I am on target. I expect to do this. So long as I stick to 2-3 fasting days a week, I expect no problem. I am trying to go to the gym 3 times a week as well. This is on track with 205km logged so far on the bike and rower. I need another 45km this month to hit my 125km a month target.
On Tuesday, I am seeing the 'healthy vessel clinic' at Millway medical practice, to discuss all of this. My absolute no 1 priority is to get my BMI down below obese, which is under 30. It is currently 30.7. The next target is to get the glucose level down, so the threat of diabetes goes off the calendar. I believe that the two things go hand in hand. My shoulder took 3-4 months to heal completely. My ankle injury has been partially mitigated by getting some suitable footwear.
I also realised that when I started this blog, I was not in the correct frame of mind to see it through. I was still in the recovery phase from my radical prostatectomy in August 2023 and I was bordering on depression at times. I feel in a better place. I set myself a series of punishing personal goals last year and failed in all, apart from those relating to the band. We did more than 12 gigs and we released our album. Why did I succeed in these and fail in everything else? The answer is simple, I would have felt like I let my band mates down, if we'd missed our goals. Letting myself down seems to matter less to me. I have come to realise that it is impossible to get physically healthy if your headspace is wrong. When you feel down, it is hard to motivate yourself and easy to fall by the wayside. I have come to the conclusion that the people we lie to most is ourselves. Maybe that's because there is less guilt in conning yourself. But it is the most harmful thing. I don't know if I will keep this particular feature up. It is hard admitting you are a useless failure, it is more fun when there is something to boast about. Naming and shaming yourself is a difficult thing to do. I only really did this as my BMI was below what it was in the last entry, but hey ho that is progress!
Also I am not sure whether talking about my weight and failed attempts to lower it is that interesting to anyone, but oddly the blogs I thought would be least interesting seem to get the biggest response. Just as an example, the most read blog this week on my site is a guest blog from 2013, by someone telling me what they thought of a blog I wrote about Richard Dawkins. I've no idea why thousands of people have started reading it, it didn't get a huge response when published. It is an interesting read, but a good example that you really can't guess what people are interested in. I don't know if Andrew Evans, who wrote the blog still reads the Barnet Eye, if he does, I wonder what he'd make of this?
Anyway enough of that, got to go to the gym!