Wednesday, 16 February 2022

Boris 'Napoleon' Johnson faces his Waterloo!

 Me? I love a bit of history. Used to be obsessed with Sci Fi, but once I realised that 99% of the stories are simply a rehash of High Noon, with gadgets and different settings, I tired of the genre and got into history. It can inform all manner of decisions, however it is worth recalling what George Bernard Shaw once said, quoting Karl Marx

"History repeats itself, first as tragedy, second as farce. If history repeats itself, and the unexpected always happens, how incapable must Man be of learning from experience."

I was reminded of this when I received a submission for a guest blog from a friend. I can't recall (it may have happened a couple of times, but I can't remember) ever rejecting a guest blog on the grounds that I just thought it was plain wrong, but  I simply couldn't publish the one I was sent. As my friend had put a lot of effort into it, I felt I had to give a proper response and not simply bin it. I share these with you as my friend stated that if I am going to reject guest blogs, I should be able to publicly justify my decision.  What his blog did do was to alert me to a parallel that I'd missed. I realised that there is more than a touch of the Napoleon about our Prime Minister, Boris Johnson and he is approaching his own Waterloo. 

Anyway, first things first. The guest blog was entitled "Boris 'Hitler' Johnson faces his Stalingrad".  My friend claimed that Boris was Hitler reincarneted. He made five charges, These were

1. Boris committed genocide. His argument was that by sending people with Covid back to care homes, his government was involved in a deliberate campaign of extermination of people who were expensive for the government to care for and who were not needed by UK PLC. Whilst I think that the policy amounted to criminal negligence, I do not think it was a deliberate organised program of genocide in the way Hitler organised the detah camps. It would be highly offensive to many to suggest it was. I simply couldn't put this on a blog unchallenged. Although I understand why he said it, you have to keep a sense of proportionality in any claims.

2, Boris is a racist as Hitler was. His argument was that Boris has a long history of racist comments, such as saying Muslim women look like letterboxes. Whilst it is clear that Johnson uses racist language, this is very different to heading a government that exterminated people on racial grounds. To devalue the brutal and disgusting racism in the core of the Nazi program by comparing it to injudicious throwaway lazy comments of the PM in his less guarded moments. The make up of his government, with ministers such as Rishi Sunak, Priti Patel and Kwasi Kwarteng show that this cannot really be levelled at the Boris regime.

3. Boris was like Hitler in that he treated women as chattels. Hitler had a very odd private life. At least two of his lovers committed suicide. There is no evidence that Hitler was particulary promiscuous though. Some historians have claimed he may have had homosexual tendencies, although publicly he was a rabid homophobe. Hitler only married shortly before he and Eva Braun committed suicide. There is no record of any children. Boris's private life is far more colourful and whereas Hitler was very against the idea of children, Boris seems to be more than happy to knock them out at the fastest rate possible. Whilst it is reasonable to claim that being married to Boris is likely to end in tears, the ending is far happer than the fate that met Hitlers lovers. 

4. Boris like Hitler, is a chancer and a gambler who dream of world domination. Boris famously stated as a child that he wanted to be "World King". Hitler started a war to achieve the ambition. There is no doubt that Boris is a chancer and a gambler, as his Brexit strategy showed, however it would be the height of stupidity to compare this with ow Hitler invaded Poland, attacked the USSR and declared war on the USA. It's like claiming someone who has a glass of wine with their dinner is a fully fledged alcoholic.

5. Boris, like Hitler has surrounded himself with yes men and is in his bunker denying that he's lost the war. Again, this is ridiculous. If you upset Boris, you get the sack and sell the story to the Daily Mirror. If you upset Hitler, you got a bullet in the head. I'm sure Boris knows exactly what jeopardy he's in. No one dared tell Hitler. 

All of these charges, were ones that simply couldn't be unchallenged. The final part of the blog was that the Council elections were going to be Stalingrad for Boris, where the Tories refusal to ditch him and get a competent leader would result in their utter destruction. This was the one part of the blog that did interest me. Stalingrad was the turning point in World War two, where the world realised that the Nazi's were going to lose. However, the parallel ends there. Hitler hung on for another couple of years, Stalingrad was a long, drawn out, attritional battle. The elections won't be. If the Tories get clobbered, Boris will be off. However, the blog got me thinking. If history repeats itself, what is a good analogy.

It seemed to me that Napoleon Bonepart was a far better comparison. Napoleon was  a libertarian. British historian Andrew Roberts stated

The ideas that underpin our modern world—meritocracy, equality before the law, property rights, religious toleration, modern secular education, sound finances, and so on—were championed, consolidated, codified and geographically extended by Napoleon. 

Josephine (Source Wikipedia)


He liberalized property laws, ended seigneurial dues, abolished the guild of merchants and craftsmen to facilitate entrepreneurship, legalized divorce, closed the Jewish ghettos and made Jews equal to everyone else. To me this chimes with Boris, a free marketeer, with little respect for conventions and no interest in religious bigotry. Boris clearly inspires the Tories, in a way that even his enemies acknowledge. Napoleon had a similar effect, the Duke of Wellington said his presence on the battlefield was worth 40,000 soldiers, for he inspired confidence from privates to field marshals. In his private life, Napoleon had many illegitimate children and left a trail of lovers in his wake, which again sounds rather familiar. 

Where did Napoleon's as a leader end? The answer is at Waterloo, in the suburbs of Brussels. In many ways, this is where Boris will be done for. Like Napoleon, he inspired his troops and generals, promised the earth, but Brussels will be his downfall. Brexit was always a tough ask for anyone to deliver. The gung ho approach of Boris got the withdrawal over the line, but like Napoleon the harsh realities of Europe, in Napoleon's case the Prussians turning up on his flank, in Boris's case, everything being stuck in the ports, undid the air of invincibility. 

For Boris though, Waterloo looks like will be the council elections. It seems to me very much as if the Tories are fighting the campaign they fought in 2018, when Labour had Jeremy Corbyn, but this time without the ominous bogieman to scare the children with. No sane Tory would expect Sir Keir Starmer to give voters the colliwobbles in the way Corbyn would. Knowing the Labour Party, I have ultimate faith in their ability to throw away winning positions, but this time it is Boris, not Corbyn that is the problem. When it comes to it, the British have never been terribly fond of Napoleoneasque figures. 

I was speaking to a local Tory recently. I asked who they thought would replace Boris in the event of a wipe out in the local elections. Their response "Someone a bit more boring who gets things done in an efficient and businesslike manner". 

I was intrigued by what Napoleon wrote in his letter of surrender to the British regent following defeat at Waterloo.

Royal Highness, – Exposed to the factions which divide my country, and to the enmity of the great Powers of Europe, I have terminated my political career; and I come, like Themistocles, to throw myself upon the hospitality of the British people. I claim from your Royal Highness the protections of the laws, and throw myself upon the most powerful, the most constant, and the most generous of my enemies.

Try saying it with a Boris accent. It is an uncannily Boris turn of phrase.

To sum up. I'm intrigued what the history books will say of Boris in 200 years time. I have no doubt at all that no sensible historian will equate him with Hitler, that is just a jibe that 'the other side' always try and sling at a Leader who is a bit dodgy, if they can find the least reason. I doubt any will, with the benefit of distance, take my thesis that he's a bit of a Napoleon character. However, I suspect his legacy will outlast most and he'll be one of the most important characters. He was the man who lead us out of the EU. He is the man who lead us through Covid. I'm not sure whether Boris will be remembered as tragdey or farce, but as his Premiership trudges down the road to his Waterloo, the right leaning press are playing the role that Napoleon's own spin doctors used to rally the troops, ironically maybe, Wikipedia reports

"Napoleon spread false intelligence which suggested that Wellington's supply chain from the channel ports would be cut."

In Napoleon's case, he was setting false expectations that the British Army would run out of supplies, for Boris it is the opposite, mythical trade deals will see us awash with cheap goods, as prices surge ever higher. Tragedy and farce. 

Please feel free to submit Guest Blogs, I don't normally reject them and I've never published my reasons before, but as I was chellenged to, I felt it was the only right thing to do.

Tuesday, 15 February 2022

I've got the best job in the world - seriously

 What did you do at work today? I'll tell you what I did. I discovered an amazing new band and got offered free tickets to what sounds like a brilliant gig on Friday. Lets start with the new band. I got chatting to the singer of Voodoo Radio, who was rehearsing at the studio today.  Being a nosey sod, I checked them out, they are brilliant. 

Quite by chance, I found I had tickets to see them in April in Guildford supporting Talisman, a reggae band I love. What are the chances. 

As if that wasn't great, then my old mate PaulMclean of British Funk Supergroup Brit Funk Association came in for a reheasal and has put me on the guest list for their show at the 100 Club on Friday. If you can make it, nip along. They are amazing


How was your day at work! Day's like this it's the best job in the world here.

Monday, 14 February 2022

Council Elections - Barnet Council audit shows £100 million of arrears, overpayment and debt

In May, Barnet will hold council elections. All of the parties will be making statements, promises and claims. The Council have been run by the Conservatives since May 2002. Do they deserve another four years? Can you trust them to run the council properly? Can you believe their promises? I've spent 14 years cataloging the changes they've made. As we approach the election, I'll be bring you key information so that you can make an informed decision. The outcome will have a real impact on your finances, the state of roads, schools, care for the vulnerable, childrens services etc. Today we look at the papers for tonights meeting of the Audit Committee. This is the committee that ensures that the council is run properly. 

I was intrigued to read the audit review papers, which will be discussed at the Council's audit committee tonight. I was shocked to read that the Council Adit has shown approx £100 million in arrears, overpayments of housing benefits and debt on issues such as parking charges (see the council papers Item 7 Appendix A & Item 8 Appendix 2)

I was rather surprised to see that despite these huge amounts of money, the work to identify and resolve issues related to these issues is'still in progress' for many of the items. There is also a suggestion that some council customers are taking advantage of various arrangements. I am not quite sure what this means or how concerned we should be, but these are huge amounts and as Council tax payers we should be concerned. Of course some of this will be collected, as noted in the section on parking.  

I have to wonder why there is such high overpayment of housing benefit? This is taxpayers money and an orgainsation that is paying out over £28 million too much should take a long hard look at itself. It is clear that housing debts will have risen due to lockdown rules, which meant it was far more difficult for the council to enforce non payment judgements.

My biggest concern are the statements that "The Council does not have the data to establish which customers taking advantage of any deferred payment arrangements may be in financial difficulties and historical collection rates may only offer some indication of potential future loss for these customers."

In laymans terms, this means that the risk cannot be properly assessed.  My key concerns below are in red italics. These are from the councils own reports

The report also states that Barnet's auditors cannot complete work within the statuatory deadline. The report states

The 2015 Regulations require that the final approved accounts are published no later than 30th September of the financial year immediately following the end of the financial year to which the statement relates. 
BDO advised Audit Committee in July 2021 that they were not able to commence the audit until September, it was therefore not possible for them to conclude their audit in line with the statutory deadline. 
BDO presented a draft completion report to Committee in December 2021 and this report  provides a further update on the findings and recommendations following further progress on the audit. 
The audit is yet to be completed but BDO anticipate providing an unmodified opinion on the Council’s financial statements subject to the clearance of the outstanding matters detailed in Appendix A.

There are Council elections in May, we are going into them with work still ongoing on the Audit. 

Last week, the Barnet Tories issued the following tweet. Don't you think it would be sensible to have a full picture of the financial state of the Council before making such promises? At the last Council Election, the Tories made similar promises regarding Council Tax. It has risen by 14% in four years. Keeping taxes low is a sensible aspiration. Making promises when you don't know if you have the cash to keep them is dishonest and irresponsible. The evidence is there that there is chaos in the finances and audit.  Every day it seems more likely that whoever wins the elections in May, they wll have a ticking financial bomb to deal with.



----- Key extracts from the reports -----

Risk description 

The Council recognises an allowance for the non-collection of receivables (arrears and debt), primarily in respect of council tax, NDR, housing benefit overpayments, housing rents and parking charges. The Council assesses each type of receivable separately in determining how much to allow for noncollection. There is a risk over the valuation of this allowance if incorrect assumptions or source data are used, or an inappropriate methodology is applied.There is an increased risk of customer default over collection of receivables where the losses are measured using either the Incurred Credit Loss model for statutory debt (eg council tax and NDR) or Expected Credit Loss (contract receivables). For some receivables, the Council may have suspended recovery action or offered deferred payment terms, and some customers that may be taking advantage of these arrangements may be in financial difficulty.

Results

Our audit work is still in progress as detailed on the following page, where we also note our review of the appropriateness of the allowance for non-collection for each type of significant receivable.Management has applied historical default rates (incurred losses) using system data to determine the credit losses on both the statutory debt and on trade receivables that fall within the scope of IFRS 9. The Council does not have the data to establish which customers taking advantage of any deferred payment arrangements may be in financial difficulties and historical collection rates may only offer some indication of potential future loss for these customers. However, this is unlikely to result in a material difference in the amount of credit losses recognised as the provision for incurred credit loss for statutory debts such as collection fund and business rate are significantly high.

Council tax arrears (Collection fund £48 million the Council’s share £38 million) 

The Council has recognised an allowance of £24 million for non-collection of its share of the council tax arrears of £38 million. The Council’s share of the arrears has increased by £3 million and the credit loss allowance has been increased by £6 million. The credit loss allowance is estimated using recovery rates achieved for aged arrears in recent years for each year up to 5 years old. For debts over 6 years a flat provision rate of 78% is applied. Our audit work to check that the data used to calculate collection rates for arrears up to 5 years old is correct and the provisioning rates have been correctly applied to aged debt at 31 March 2021 is still in progress. We have also extended our review to cover actual collection rates for debts over 6 years to assess the appropriateness of the flat rate % applied to debts over 6 and that provision falls within an acceptable range. 

NDR arrears (Collection fund £22.5 million the Council’s share £7 million) 

The Council has recognised an allowance of £5.5 million for non-collection of its share of the NDR business rates arrears of £7 million. The Council’s share of the arrears has stayed the same as prior year and the credit loss allowance has been increased by £1 million. Previously the provision has been estimated using historic collection rate information from last three years however this year the provision has been estimated using information from the last 2 years, which has resulted in an overall increase of £9 million. Our audit work to ensure that the provision amount is reasonable is still in progress.

Housing benefits overpayment debt (£28.2 million) 

The Council has recognised an allowance of £26.8 million for non-collection of housing benefit overpayment on total debt of £28.2 million. In the prior yearan allowance of £24 million was raised against arrears of £25 million. The provision is estimated based on historical benefit overpayment recovery data. Our review of the methodology to ensure we are satisfied that this falls within reasonable range for non-collection of debt is still in progress.

Housing rents arrears (£14.6 million) 

The Council has recognised an allowance for non-collection of housing rents arrears of £11.4 million on total debt of £14.6 million. In the prior year a provision of £10.3 million was raised against rent arrears of £13.4 million. The provision is estimated using historic collection data. Our review of the methodology to ensure we are satisfied that this falls within reasonable range for non-collection of debt is still in progress.

Parking arrears (£11 million) 

The Council has recognised an allowance for non-collection of parking arrears of £8.3 million on total debt of £11 million. In the prior year a provision of £7 million was raised against rent arrears of £10.7 million. The provision is estimated using historic collection data. Our review of the methodology to ensure we are satisfied that this falls within reasonable range for non-collection of debt is still in progressSundry receivables (£198 million) Sundry receivables includes £157 million of government debtors that does not need to be included within the expected credit losses model since Government debt is not considered to be at risk. An expected credit loss allowance of £6 million has been provided for against the remaining £41 million of sundry receivables. 

The majority of the receivables are still within current payment terms and our preliminary view is that these debts are not considered to be at risk of non-collection and the credit loss allowance could be overstated as a result. We have requested an analysis of the expected credit loss assessment to ensure that amount raised as the expected shortfall in cash from credit loss is reasonable

Sunday, 13 February 2022

The tweets of the week in the London Borough of Barnet - 13th February 2022

 It must be something in the air. This week has seen the very best of Twitter in the Borough of Barnet. The last few weeks have seen some amazing tweeting both by our regulars and by accounts new to me. To be a successful tweeter, to my mind, means posting interesting content. I hope you'll agree some of this weeks contributions are spectacular! I'd suggest that you have a look through the time lines of these wonderful accounts. I've followed four new accounts today, which may be a record for this feature!

I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed putting this together. As for my week? Been a bit quiet. Everyone in the house apart from me is isolating. I've tested negative thus far, but I cancelled a couple of arrangements just to be on the safe side. The highlight was Echo and the Bunnymen at the Roundhouse on Monday, then all down hill from there!

1. I'll start with this brilliant thread from @Time_NW, with a fantastic contribution from the rather wonderful @IanMcGreevy on the subject of the Old Welsh Harp pub, demolished in 1971, the site of which is a sliproad to the Edgware road at Staples Corner


2. A new account for me. This is wonderful.


3. Another rather wonderful new account for me. A wonderful picture from one of the hidden gems of Edgware, that I'd guess 99% of locals are unaware of


4. I've always said that if you want to get a tweet in here, feature some local music history! Remember Eater well, local heroes. Another new tweeter


5. This is wonderful. I was an alter boy at The Sacred Heart at the time of the Jubilee. I've got a copy of that programme somewhere. I especially love the old adverts. I remember Letts well and Derek Tyne (who featured in Richard Wilkinsons list of top Mill Hillians) who owned Mill Hill Television was a mate of my Dad's. I decorated his house when I left school. 


6. This next post, by one of our fave regulars is an excellent example of how to use Twitter for good. Check the replies


7. Did you know London's first nightbus ran from Cricklewood to Liverpool St? You do now, thanks to @Historygirl


8. This is another new 'stumble across' that I found putting this together. I'd strongly recommend checking Gordons tweets, they are amazing.


9. I went to school in Finchley, and attended my sisters wedding in Minsk but had never heard of the Belarus library until I saw this


10. And finally, a date for your diary. This should be good!



That's all folks apart from a little plug for a video by my Band, The False Dots, which I think contains some excellent footage of Mill Hill in the early 1970's even if I say so myself.


Saturday, 12 February 2022

The Saturday list #337 - The ten most influential people in the London music scene (and a few thoughts on the industry)

 As regular readers will know, music is a central part of my life. I run Londons largest independent music rehearsal studios, so I get to see and hear what is going on at grassroots level. It is important to know the trends in music and to ensure that we are in tune with what London is doing. Twenty five years ago, our studios were full of aspiring indie rock bands, all wanting to be the next Oasis or Blur. Much ahs changed. Guitar based bands are not in vogue. Shows such as Pop Idol, the Voice and X Factor have changed the industry beyond recognition. This has had positive and negative impacts on the business. The most positive is the massive increase in female artists. Just about all of the major British artists to emerge in the last fifteen or so years have been female singers, those such as Amy and Adele are undoubtedly massive talents. The down side is that the concept of 'developing artists' has more or less gone out of the window. Labels used to allow artists to find their feet and develop over several albums. Now they want instant hits and move on to the next artist on the conveyor belt if this doesn't happen. 

As we emerge from the pandemic, it seems likely that the music industry will go through an inevitable period of change. Sadly, we will have lost some of our venues, artists have spent the best part of two years not performing. I wnet to see Echo and The Bunnymen at the Roundhouse on Monday and it almost seemed that the audience had forgotten what to do. It was a great gig, but the atmosphere was a bit odd. Many artists, with time on their hands, will have come up with new material. Generally the first couple of albums by artists who write their own material are the best, simply because they have a few years worth of music that they put a long time putting together and honing in smaller venues. By the time they get the third album, it's all been used. In between touring, it is difficult to keep the standard up. I fully expect some absolutely cracking music to emerge. 

Which brings us to todays list. When I started think about this, I realised just how much the industry has changed. In the 60's and 70's, there were band managers who were nearly as famous as the artists they managed. Brian Epstein was well known as the Beatles manager, as was Andrew Loog-Oldham who managed the Stones. Malcolm McClaren was almost a household name as manager of the Sex Pistols. Such celebrity managers are most definitely a thing of the past, as are the stunts they would pull to ensure that their artists were in the public eye. The 70's, 80s and 90's also saw celebrity label owners. They were not musicians, but people such as Dave Robinson at Stiff Records and Alan McGhee at Creation records were well known. Artists would sign to their labels as they felt this would bestow credibility on them. Lee Thompson of Madness told me that the reason that they signed to Stiff was because Dave Robinson took them to the pub and they instantly knew they could work with him. Apparently there were better offers on the table, but they knew they would prosper on Stiff. We don't have such figures anymore. So who are the important figures in the London music scene? In no particular order, here is my selection. 

1. Jool Holland.

Every major artist to emerge in the UK in the last 20 years has had their breakthrough moment on the Jools Holland show. It is alost unique with its eclectic selection of artists and genres. It is almost a throwback. I don't think anyone can call themselves a genuine music fan if they don't watch the Jools Holland show. 

2. Gary Crowley.

Crowley's show on BBC Radio London has been the first to play just about every indie artist over the past few decades. Crowley is one of the good guys and has always made a point of supporting new artists. His show is well worth a listen if you like great music.

3. Robert Elms.

Another BBC London legend. Elms has been at the heart of London's music culture. Whilst Crowley is slanted towards the Indie sound, Elms is more into Americana, Jazz, Blues and anything that is generally less rocky. The first London Radio presenter to play Amy Winehouse. When his show was a daily event, pre pandemic, he'd have artists in the studio every day playing live slots, many on a beaten up old piano he claims he'd rescued from a skip!

4. Jess Iszatt

Jess presents the BBC Introducing slot. This gives airtime to new artists. Jess is an up and coming presenter and I can only see her influence growing

5 & 6  David and Carrie Grant

These two North London vocal coaches present the BBC Radio London Saturday morning show and also feature new artists. David is also a MOBO award wining singer, Carrie is a reporter on the One Show. They are also highly respected vocal coaches and have helped many singers develop. 

7. Sean Flowerdew

Sean has run the London International Ska Festival for a couple of decades now. This brings some of the finest reggae and ska acts to London, as well as organising Ska cruises on the Thames. Everyone from Desmond Dekker to Georgie Fame has played at the Festival. This year we will see Ska Legends The Pioneers play the festival. In my opinion Sean is the finest independent festival promoter around.

8. Peggy Conlon

Peggy is the Landlady at The Dublin Castle at Camden Town. The Dublin Castle is perhaps the most Iconic pub venue in London. Peggy's husband Alo recognised that music would bring the punters in and they never looked back. Alo died in 2009 but thankfully Peggy has kept the place going and it is still at the beating heart of the London Music Scene. I doubt too many artists have emerged from London who haven't played at the Castle at some point.

9. Gaz Mayall

Gaz's rockin blues club is a legendary music club. Based currently at St Moritz at 159 Wardour St. Gaz also has his own band The Trojans and his own label Gaz's Rockin Records, who's first release was by the Potato 5, a London Ska band who I loved so much I went to see them play in Amsterdam! To me, Gaz sums up the spirit of the underground London music scene. 

10. Lee Thompson

Lee is the sax player with Madness. Most people know Madness for their quirky Ska music, but there is so much more to the band. For decades, they've been organising Madstock festivals. These are not simply Madness gigs, they deliver amazing acts, DJ's etc. The last one we went to in 2019 saw Ziggy Marley, Paul Weller and Jerry Dammers on Stage, as well as a DJ tent with the likes of Don Letts. The thing I love about Madness is that they always ensure value for money and a great night. However there is more to Lee Thompson. Whereas many stars would put their feet up, Lee also plays sax with his son Daley's band, The Silencerz, at various North London pubs, just for the love of it. He put together The Lee Thompson Ska Orchestra and got Ska legend Bitty Mclean to sing on their version of Desmond Dekkers Fu-Manchu. He's produced a film of his life and a book recently. What I love about Madness and Lee in particular is that they are what a band should be, a celebration and an organisation that puts something back. They've given dozens of artists a leg up over the years. Long may it continue. 


I worked with Lee to help him produce the video for Fu Manchu. It was filmed at Mill Hill Music Complex Studios and at Mill Hill Services Club! Enjoy


Friday, 11 February 2022

Time to recognise that children of cancer victims suffer from PTSD - Rog T's Cancer Blog

 I was always going to do another in episode in my Cancer blog today, charting my life with prostate cancer. I had a PSA test on Monday and the results were that it's 6.7. The threshold to be concerned and have a chat with my consultant is 7.0 It has gone up, which is not good, but it is not high. I'll be having my yearly consult in September with Mr Emberton. I'll have an MRI before then. Today though, I am not focussing on my own cancer diagnosis(other than to urge anyone who has concerning symptoms to get checked out ASAP, it really is better to get it treated early), I'm covering a topic I've been meaning to write about for a couple of years. I want to talk about how my mother developed cancer when I was seven years old and how it changed my life and how I believe I'm still suffering from PTSD as a result, and how I think that this is probably true for every child of cancer victims. 

You may wonder what made me choose today to have this discussion. Well I was looking at the Guardian obituaries and I saw an obituary for Dora Black. It prompted me to tweet this.


My memories of the consultations are quite difficult. I'd almost forgotten the whole thing, but seeing the obituary and her picture brought the episode back. I was twelve or thirteen, it was 1974-75 several years after my mothers treatment. It had just about reached the point where she was deemed 'fully recovered'. My behaviour was appalling at the time. I was doing atrociously at school, always in trouble. I was off every other week with all manner of ailments, mostly that I'd made up. I preferred lying in bed to going to school. I found Finchley Catholic High School to be a very stressful environment, although I didn't recognise this at the time. I can remember being questioned about what was 'upsetting me' and what my concerns were. The truth was that I didn't really know. I felt like I was an alien from another planet, who had somehow been put in Mill Hill and sent to Finchley Catholic High as punishment for some terrible crime that had been erased from my memories. I'd also been given the gift of dyslexia, just so I was sure to fail. I felt absolutely desperate at the time. Despite multiple sessions Dr Black never really got anywhere. I was taken to see another paediatrician at St John & St Elizabeths hospital, a private guy, top bloke in the country. He got nowhere either. In the end, my parents took me off the valium, as they felt it made me like a zombie (their words). They decided that we'd just muddle through. 

By the time I was 14, I'd discovered punk rock music and had a focus in life. My anxiety abated and I moved on. I put all of those memories and anxieties in a drawer, shut it and locked it. I've had other issues, but I never associated them with this period. I'd decided that it was best kept locked up. 

 It would have stayed there, had I not made the rash decision to write a book of my life. I initially envisaged a fun look back at a life in rock and roll. The problem was that when I started to write it, I started at the beginning. As a kid, I was happy and full of fun. All of the pictures show me with a beaming, cheeky smile. I starred in TV adverts, you can see me in one for Heinz beans, made in 1968, that I've used in one of my band videos. Although I was doing badly at school, I was very good at acting and being photographed. My mum was most proud of my achievements.

Then in 1970, she was diagnosed with 'terminal stomach cancer'. My parents were told that her chances of survival after five years were zero. Not a soul on the planet had survived that long. She was told that they could operate, it may give her a couple of years. My mother was a fighter and she grasped the opportunity with both hands. I was seven, none of this was shared with me. Mum went into hospital, I was palmed off to a relations house. At the time, I was at St Vincents primary school. At the back was the Vincentian orphanage, a place of abject terror for us all. The orphans were treated as second class citizens.  The first time I realised that something was amiss was when a cousin told me that my Mum had cancer and was going to die and I was going to be put in the orphanage. I knew mum was in hospital, but this was the first inkling I had to how serious it was. A couple of days later, my Dad turned up. He took me up to the hospital, the first time I'd seen Mum since she'd been admitted. She was in St John and St Elizabeth in St Johns Wood, under Mr Phillip King, a top cancer surgeon. As we drove up, I asked my Dad if it was true that Mum was going to die and I was being put in an orphanage. I knew the story was a lie and knew Dad would put me right. What happened next shocked me to my core. Dad swerved to the side of the road and burst into tears.

Dad was a tough Aussie ex WWII pilot. I'd never seen him show fear, let alone cry. He pulled up, sobbed uncontrollably for five minutes and then said "Who told you that?". I lied and said "Someone at school". He said "Whoever told you that is not your friend". He then said "The doctors said Mum will probably die, but if we all have faith and pray for her, I believe she'll pull through". He then said "Whatever happens, you are my son and you won't be going in any orphanage".  When we saw mum, I was shocked. She looked twenty years older than when she'd left. She was rigged up to machines, had drips in her arm and could hardly talk. She'd been in a couple of weeks. I knew Dad had waited till she looked better and could talk before bringing me. I could only speculate how bad she'd looked before. 

That was the day my life changed. Before she'd had cancer, I'd been the apple of her eye. Now she was 100% focussed on getting herself well again. Dad had a business to run and had to look after her. Only myself and my sister were still at home. We supported each other as best we could, but it was awful. As I wrote the chapter, I felt darker and more negative. I realised that I'd been completely ripped apart, but no one had even noticed. Of course my mum was the focus, she was desperately ill but I was cast adrift. I retreated into a bit of a fantasy world. At school, we were based in portacabins by a lawn. I'd deliberately be naughty, to get thrown out, so I could stand outside and watch the birds feeding. I'd bring in bread for them. As you can imagine, this did nothing for my grades. To everyone's amazement, mum recovered. She made it to 83 and passed in 2008. But the acting and modelling stopped. 

By the time Mum was fully fit, I was at FCHS and was morphing into a difficult teenager. I'd always just thought that everyone goes through difficult times and we all have episodes in our youth that we lock away. However, over the last few years I've realised that this is not something trivial. I was extremely lucky. I had a strong father and my mother recovered. They were relatively well off, so I was cushioned from the worst ravages of the time. This was brought home when I employed a young man, the son of one of my friends. His father died when he was six of pancreatic cancer. I don't want to discuss his circumstances, but our private conversations lead me to the conclusion that a parental brush with a serious cancer causes children to suffer the most terrible PTSD. His experiences and memories made me re-examine the period. Back in the early 1970's there was no concept of giving people support to get through difficult experiences. I don't recall ever being asked if seeing my mother in a hospital bed, expecting her to die had affected me or how I felt. If anything, it was quite the opposite. When I was slung out of classes, whilst my mum was in hospital, I'd be whacked by the Headmistress with a table tennis bat for being naughty. 

My view is that the NHS default position should be that children of parents with serious cancers (and other life threatening conditions) should be given conselling for trauma. My own experiences of counselling sessions was not great. I remember big desks and books. I remember difficult questions and an expectation that 'something was wrong' that I could explain. If I'd have told them what I really thought, I've always thought they would have locked me up for being insane. If I'd said "I feel like I'm an alien from another planet, who has had all their memories erased and I've been put here, in this body as some sort of punishment for a crime I can't remember, I know this is not true, but it is how I feel" I have no idea what reponse I'd have got. I suspect they'd have told me to stop watching Gerry Anderson's UFO, which may well be where I got the idea. Sometimes I'd lie in the garden, look up at the stars and pray that the aliens would come and take me home and that it would all be alright. 

I've never shared this with anyone before. I don't feel like that now, I haven't since I was around 13. But I felt it with every ounce of my existence then. I found this statement on THIS WEBSITE 

  • Dissociation. People who develop dissociative symptoms begin to feel disconnected from reality. They may withdraw into fantasy worlds, and at the extreme edge they may develop dissociative identity disorder, which is the correct label for what used to be known as multiple personality disorder.
This sums up how I felt. I am fortunate that it didn't develop into MPD. A few years ago I was chatting with a mate about our youth. He lived up the road from me. He told me "We all used to joke that you were lost in space. You'd knock on our door, march in and turn the telly over to watch UFO or Lost in Space and and go mental if anyone turned the telly over". I was really shocked. I asked why no one pulled me up about it. He said "My Mum (she was a lovely and very kind Irish Lady) told us your mum was ill and people go funny when their mums are ill and to let me get on with it, so we all just let you get on with it".  What if you don't have mates with such enlightened  mum's? What if your parent has passed and the remaining one is in no position to support you? What if you don't develop a love of music (or something else) that gives you a new focus?  I've always been terrified of ridicule. It is quite funny because recently, I've been trolled on Twitter by an extremely warped character, who thinks alcohol and bad sexual performance are my personal weaknesses. They are not, I couldn't give a stuff abour such childish insults. My one true fear is to be exposed as an imposter, an alien and locked up in an institution for living in a fantasy world. I suspect that this may have started with the orphanage taunt. So there you go all you Trolls and Haters, you know my dark secret.

But I've taken the decision to own it. I once wrote a song called "I'm not frightened any more". The sad truth is that it's not entirely true, I am constantly terrified. I am terrified that I will lose people I love. I'm terrified that I'll see people in pain. Most of all, I'm terrified that if I do, I'll not be strong enough to cope and run away. but that's it.

We, as a society, cannot stop children seeing terrible things as a result of a cancer in the family. We cannot prevent the loved child suddenly finding they are the lowest priority in the house. We cannot stop them seeing parents in horrific pain, in bed, unable to talk, rigged up to machines with drips and looking terrible. But we can recognise that this will take a terrible toll. We can recognise that, without support that child will be severely damaged and will only get through if they are lucky to have a familial support group that is strong or if they have a supreme amount of inner strength. We need to recognise that such children are likely to underperform at school and they should be supported and not received tough disciplinary action without getting to the bottom of the root cause. 

There is a misguided view that children 'don't understand'. This is rubbish, when you are a child, you are like a sponge, soaking up information to build the resilience that will get you through life. Adults are the ones who find it hard to learn and adapt. The NHS needs to recognise this. In the long term, it will save them money as children will not grow up with this albatross around their neck, or at least have the tools to cope.  Sorry if this has been a long, rather disjointed and emotional blog. I had to get this out there. I hope you understand.
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About Rog T's cancer blog
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For those of you who are regular readers and have read the previous posts on Cancer, there's what this is all about. I write this blog because knowledge is power and if you know what you are dealing with, you have more weapons in the locker to fight it. It is a personal view, I'm not medically qualified. This is for the sole purpose of information for those who are interested.This is the latest installment in my occasional series about how I'm adjusting to living with a big C in my life.  For those of you who aren't, here's a quick summary. I'm 59 years old and in October 2011 I  had a prostate biopsy following two "slightly high" PSA tests - 2.8 & 4.1. The biopsy took ten tissue samples and one of these showed a "low grade cancer" which gave me a 3+3 on the Gleason scale. I was put on a program of active monitoring.  In early February, I got the results of the a PSA test - down to 3.5 and an MRI scan which found absolutely nothing, two more tests in 2012 were at 3.5 and 3.9, in 2013 my test was 4.0, Jan 2014 was 3.8, August 2014 was 4.0,  February 2015 it was  up to 5.5  and my latest in August 2015 was down again at 4.6. In October 2015 I had a transperinial Prostate biopsy, that revealed higher grade cancer and my Gleason score was raised to 3+4 (Small mass + more aggressive cancer). On 22nd Jan 2016 I had HIFU (Hi Intensity Focused Ultrasound) treatment at UCHL). My post procedure PSA in May was 4.0 which was down, followed by 3.7 in August, and 3.5 in October  which means that the direction is positive . However in January the follow up MRI revealed "something unusual which requires investigation" After a follow up biopsy, it appeared this was nothing to worry about. My two most recent PSA tests were Ok (3.7 and 4.6) and an MRI scan in March was very positive. A  PSA in October 2019 was 4.6, so stable and good news, the last in May 2020 was 5.45 a small rise, so worrying, however after a review against the most recent MRI, it was decided that this was fine. My latest one in February 2022 is 6.7. I've got a review in Spetember. 

  I've no symptoms apart from needing to wee quite regularly and sadly for a few people, if I'm gonna die soon, it won't be from Prostate cancer. Got the picture?

I'll finish with the video I mentioned. This is the pre cancer me at the height of my fame, in 20 million households every week. It's all been downhill since


Thursday, 10 February 2022

#ItsNotOK - Sexual Abuse and Sexual Violence Awareness Week 7th - 13th February 2022


This week is Sexual Abuse and Sexual Violence Awareness Week 7th - 13th February 2022. There is a twitter #tag #ItsNotOK to track the week on Twitter. It is also #ChildrensMentalHealthWeek. Sadly there are far too many children who are suffering mental health issues due to sexual abuse and too many adults suffering legacy issues caused by abusers.

Sadly, this blog is aware of the suffering caused to several of our friends by these issues. Sexual predators are often very narcisistic and controlling personalities who carefully select victims who they think they can control and who will not expose them. One friends eldest child killed themself in their 20's, having only recently revealed historic abuse from when they were seven years old. The demons were too much. Of course abusers do not care. Many deviously manipulate themselves into positions of trust, some as teachers, some as people serving roles of trust in the community, with access to young people. The mechnism we have to protect young people is the DBS disclosure system and the sex offenders register. This only works when people are caught. This is why it is vital that we help and support ALL victims to report abusers.

Many adults also suffer abuse, often at the hands of abusive partners, sadly both grown women and men are not immune to the problem. The most powerful weapon abusers have is the lie that they perpetuate, that no one will believe the victims. That is why it is vital that we believe victims and give them as much support as we can. It is vital that they report abuse to police and it is vital that the police take the claims seriously.

This is why I am supporting #Itsnotok and will be retweeting and sharing their posts. If you want to find out more, check this website out https://sexualabuseandsexualviolenceawarenessweek.org/

Tuesday, 8 February 2022

Small Charity Grants in Barnet 2020-21 and a question for your local councillors

 I was intrigued to see the list of 17 grants made to local charities in the Borough of Barnet 2020-21 (the last available period available). CLICK HERE FOR THE SPREADSHEET

Click for a readable version

I don't really want to comment on individual grants. I am sure all recepients are worthy causes and it is good that the council was able to spend £61,177 on community organisations. What did interest me was that it seems some wards did rather better than others.  If you have a community organisation that would benefit from such a loan, CLICK HERE for details on how to apply.

There are 21 wards in the Borough of Barnet. I am sure each one has worthy community organisations. It strikes me that the wards that will do best are the wards that have local councillors who are motivated to work with their local community groups. I notice that a couple of charities managed to get two grants in the period. 

I'd suggest that a very good question you may wish to ask your local councillors, when they come knocking on your door as we approach the May Council elections is "Barnet Council dished out over £60,000 in grants to local community groups in 2020-21, the last accounting period published, what grants did you secure for community groups your ward in this period?".

My personal view is that I'd want councillors who can give a positive answer. Don't let them fob you off with tales of wonderful projects, make sure they demonstrate that they have supported local charities and can give examples of grants secured. I know several local sports clubs, cub, scout and brownie groups, etc that would have been delighted to have some financial support. 

Monday, 7 February 2022

I'm pro vaccine, I love Joni Mitchell but she's wrong about free speech on Spotify

 This is a blog that I've found difficult to write. There are many issues that come together and the brew that comes out is rather toxic. Firstly, I have to say that if Joni Mitchell and Neil Young wish to take their art of Spotify, that is there absolute right and I totally support them. If they'd done it because artists are not getting a fair deal from online platforms, I wouldn't be writing this. Secondly, I am very pro vaccine and I deplore people who are making money from spouting anti vax rubbish. I totally believe that there should be strict laws about propogating dangerous myths about medical treatments, especially when  this is done for cash. I've not listened to the Podcast that the bloke who all the fuss is about has produced. It would simply irritate me. Personally I'd much rather it wasn't on Spotify or any of the other online platforms. But, and here is the big but, I also believe in the right to free speach and I do not think that suppression of legally held views is the way forward. 

We desperately need a way of identifying harmful and dishonest content and legislating for it. Medical authorities and National Governments need to ensure that all relevant data is there so that dangerous lies can be debunked and the people who peddle them are held to account. If platforms such as Spotify host such material, they should be liable to face legal action. But it has to be based on science and properly constituted law. If I say "I will not not be vaccinated, because I saw a video on youtube that says it will make you magnetic and die of cancer and it won't stop you getting ill and dying of the disease it is aimed at" and such a video exists, it is a perfectly reasonable thing to say. If the video contains information that is untrue, then the person who has posted it, has potentially caused me harm. If I suffer as a result I should be able to seek recourse against the platform and the person who posted it. If I die, my dependents should. Harm has been caused. 

However, Me, Neil Young and Joni Mitchell, though we may hold such things in contempt, are not qualified and do not have the information to make such a desicision about whether information is false. We need to see medical authorities take the lead on this and governments legislate on it. I take the view that if someone is making spurious claims online, they should have to be able to prove that there is a scientific basis for their views. If they can, then it is a valdi view, even if we don't like it. If they can't, they should face the cost of having their views debunked and they should be legally prevented from posting material in future about health and well being. I am perfectly fine with David Icke saying he's the son of God and we should all wear Turquiose tracksuits. There is no logical reason to remove such things. When he posts myths about vaccines and makes a fortune from doing so, that is a different matter. It disturbs me that in this distopian age, governments don't have the wherewithal to address such myths in a proper scientific manner.

I am reminded of my mother whenever there is a discussion on vaccines. She was nearly killed by Diptheria in 1937. She also saw my brother suffer from Polio. She told me that the anti vaccine mob existed purely because people had forgot the sheer terror of plagues of infectious diseases. I recall her dressing down a friend who was saying they would not give their children the MMR vaccine. My mother recounted how she was told that my eldest brother had Polio and might die. She said that she prayed in gratitude to the Lord that for her younger children, Polio had been banished by vaccination. 

I cannot believe how people fall for such nonsense as peddled by the anti vaccine mob, but given that there is not a proper, central WHO resource, which addresses all of the myths in one central place, globally. Of course, some people will always believe that everything is a conspiracy. There are still some who believe the Earth is flat. That is their right, but we don't put them in charge of the NASA moon program. 

Sunday, 6 February 2022

The Tweets of the week in the London Borough of Barnet 6th February 2022

 So what has your week been like?  I've had a busy week. Tuesday night I was at the Town Hall doing my civic duty grilling councillors. Wednesday I met with some mates at the Barcelona Tapas bar in Middlesex St. Thursday was five a side, Friday we went for a lovely Mexican meal at Mestizo (well worth a trip, only 30 mins from Mill Hill!), well worth a trip. Last night was at The Alice House in West Hampstead for a party. Looking forward to a nice relaxed Sunday with a Wild Boar joint from Boucherie Gerard once the doggies have had their walkies. 

That's enough of me, how's your week been? I've got to say that this weeks list is one that is well worth a read. In fact it's so good that we've eleven tweets this week, whereas the normal rule is ten. I hope you'll agree it warrants an extra one! Please follow any of these Tweeters who tickle your fancy (or any other parts). 

Without further ado, this is what our local tweeters have been up to.

1. Lets start with this wonderful image from one of our favourite local groups, looking after our local waterways.


2. I rather like this post. I'd recommend walking Edgwarebury Lane, if you want to get a good flavour of our neighbourhood. From the bustle of Edgware Town Centre to the heart of the Green Belt


3. Whilst Mark Amies continues to campaign to try and retain some local character in Edgware, we will support him


4. I do love a moody picture of a bus in the fog. I would thoroughly recommend checking out Benjamin's pictures, they are wonderful, if like me you love pictures of London.


5. Rules are made to be broken. I normally only pick tweets posted this week, but I missed this and it really deserves a share. I do hope you'll forgive me. It would have been in last weeks had I not been so bad at my job!


6. I've never posted a Tweet in French before, but this is truly wonderful!


7. A date for your diary!


8. Springtime is coming. I hope this puts a smile on your face


9. We do our best to promote the good things in our little corner of paradise. Good to see our friends at A better Mill Hill do as well. Can you help support these initiatives?


10. Calling all singers. Improve your vocal technique!


This weeks Bonus Tweet!!!!!
As we included a tweet from last week, here's a bonus for you. This tweet was posted by the Barnet Society after I started putting the list together and this is a really important matter. Many readers know the Mitre in Barnet, one of the best pubs in our area. Please read the link in the tweet. The Mitre is a historic building. We must ensure that it is preserved. Sadly our Council does not have a great record when it comes to looking after our local heritage. Can I also ask you to follow the Barnet Society and support the brilliant work they do.







That's all folks!