The next step is to have a chat with my consultant. I would be surprised if he says anything other than "This is very good news". We will then discuss my continence, which is also pretty good. I've not really had any issues since the cathetar has been removed, except for when I've been silly with alcohol. Even that is improving. The only small issue is when I pee, if I forget to count to ten when I finish, sometimes a bit comes out when I tuck in. Then we'll discuss sexual function. That is slowly returning with the aid of Cialis. I had hoped it would be quicker, but we are getting there.
I've had a couple of chats with mates who are around my age. I mentioned this and they told me that they needed Cialis and they hadn't had a prostatecomy and reminded me I wasn't 18 anymore. I do get this, but as I was 100% functional until the op, I do feel I should be doing better, no matter how unrealistic this is. One thing I've found, which wasn't true before, is that if I drink any amount of alcohol, then the cialis doesn't work. A glass of wine or a pint is OK, but any more and forget it.
And finally, there is the state of my mental health. I think it is fair to say that the operation had a huge effect on this. I would say I'm 85% back to where I was. If you'd asked me on Friday, I'd have said I'm 100% but the events at Hadley FC on Saturday shook me. Seeing a young man of 20, in his prime, keel over with a cardiac arrest really upset me. I can't say that I've 100% got my composure back. I've been feeling rather vulnerable. I suspect that before the op, I'd have not felt quite the same. I'd have been upset, but not feeling anxious and depressed about it three days later.
Recently, I've been on a real high. My band, The False Dots, have been on a bit of a roll. We did a wonderful gig on Friday night, but in truth, I've not felt like shouting about what a great band we are and doing the usual stuff I do.God willing, this malaise will pass and I'll my glass will appear more half full than half empty as I feel today. Having got some great news, I should be feeling ecstatic today, and reading on BBC News that Jack Marshall is doing well has certainly been good news, I am still feeling a bit anxious and lethargic. This is nothing major and having a bit of a cold doesn't help. I just don't feel that I bounce back as quickly from things since the op.
And as I move away (hopefully) from prostate cancer being an active medical issue for me, all I can really say is that I am extremely lucky. Heaven only knows where I'd be if I hadn't had a PSA screening in 2011. As a result of the HIFU treatment in 2016 and the RARP treatment last year, what could have been a really serious issue is under control. I was watching "The Piano" on Sunday with my wife and they featured someone who's brother, who I suspect was my age, had died of prostate cancer. I dodged that bullet, so I really have a lot to be thankful for.
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